Hey everyone.
I am not much of a writing in these blogs much, thats why i have a xanga. And since this will be my only jounral entry on here..i will make it worth it.

You may would like to know alittle more about me, since these things dont let us write much on the profile.

about me-

....ok first things first my bark is worse then my bite..i hate girls that like to play fuckin game.ill never recover fully from the last whore. im a romantic. i like things sweet and romantic. im usually the life of the party and im full of compliments. i mean if i think someone looks good today, im gonna fucken tell them! so its becomming trendy for strangers to have my pictures on their binders and trade em with people like fucking yu-gi-oh cards lol. but thats cool. My heart's been torn out and thrown across the room. So yeah...dare to be different.Guess thats me. I'm hardly "normal" yet still affraid to be alone. A whole lot of nothing with some charm. I expect too much of people. Love me, Hate me, in the end I really dont give a fuck.


likes-
Music, Tattoos, Piercings, Eyes..Guitar, Love, Fashion, BlackMakeUp(aka BLACKSTUFF),Randomness,Closeness,Friends,Singing,Hanging out,kissing,holding,touvhing,caressing,compliments,laughting,midnight beaches,late night phone calls,music,MISFITS,boys,giving advice,pictures (i fucken love when people send a million pictures) i have love and respect for anyone openly bi/gay. R-E-S-P-E-C-T


music-
TheMISFITS GLASSJAW BleedingThrough AsILayDying KillswitchEngage RememberingNever SensesFail Cadence FuneralForAFriend 36CrazyFists BrightEyes AvengedSevenfold LambOfGod Nora NormaJean FromAutumnToAshes Atreyu Scarlet Halloween Graves DarkestHour Saosin EvergreenTerrace BloodBrothers HeadAutomatica Geometry HIM Finch AlexIsOnFire Hopesfall EighteenVisions MarsVolta PoisonTheWell UnderOath Thrice Thursday BetweenTheBuriedAndMe EverytimeIDie Unearth SAVESTHEDAY Falloutboy PrettyGirlsMakeGraves FurtherSeemsForever Dash FMinus CradleOfFilth BillyTalent AtTheDriveIn AFI TheMovielife 100Demons CoheedAndCambria BrightEyes NoFX HomeGrown Danzig DeathByStereo DeathCabForCutie Deftones Kataklysm MyChemicalRomance Marvelous3 Orgy.

occupation-
lead singer of phantompains---> [link]
model for bleeding star clothing, hotopic, and celvin k, and several others.

marital status-
single, looking for my other half

name-
Angel Lengal Sahsa Kristian Starr and yes its my birth name.

age-
19

gender-
of course (male)

birthday-
feb 14 1986

location-
Just moved to georgia from my homeland (cairo)

eye color-
baby blue

hair color-
black with white highlights (now)

tattos-
i have (37)

percings-
i have (45)

gay/bi/str8-
i am those types of people who belive love is love and whom perfer not to be labeled

art work-
i have my own style of artwork, and if you do not like it then its not really my problem.

i will be adding more pictures every day. i belvie the human form is the most beautful and artful thing ever made. the body comes in different shapes and forms and i cherish everyone becuase everyone is beauful in their own way.


galley-
i will be adding many different galleyes about me, of pictures of me and i hope you like them. each day i will be adding 5 a day.

*if you have not been to my xanga here is what is going on in my life*

xangal entries-

bad over shine the good. But soon hopeful everything will be better in time. I believe my time is coming to final be happy. Just one problem its taking too fucking long for it to come. DAMN YOU FATE lol. I been listening to some random songs, I been getting sick of listening to despressing music hell I want to listen to something that makes me wanna dance, maybe that’s why everyone is so fucking sad all the time all artist seem to make are songs about death and shit. Give me something to dance to, and a lover to dance with and I am set for life lol.


Today I was so fucking board and so I watched shrek 2 omg I loved it…I love the ending where the fairy godmother sings “holding out for a hero” it was so better than the first! I never watch cartoons but this one was one hell of one. Sometimes I feel rock and techno runs though my veins. And I love it.

I did get a new screen name on AOL if you would like to talk or chat with me, its STOP FAKING MEI love my sn its sooo koolies lol I know me werid and like your not, maybe not as much as me. A lot has changed me, and I think it will work out for the best even when the times and days seem the darkness hour of my mind.

I have finally got my xanga, well started to anyway. The song that is playing on my xanga is for BUSH, I been watching the news about EVERYTHING that is going on in the world, and everything seem to be going wrong because of BUSH, He cant do anything right, and I blame American for selecting him to distort this country. And I guess the word “Land of the Free” Is a bunch of bullshit, really it is. Bush is against EVERYTHING he does not like, and I am sick of letting him do this shit to us. I am sick of just watching the world and let that mother fucker let it fall apart. I may not be the brightest person in the world but I know how to fix every god damn problem he caused.

Each day goes by I grow angrier towards the world. Even more those haters. And you all know who the fuck you are. And its time to blast your asses to hell and back. I know I might sound much more different. I have always been the nice sweet, kind one, but things have changed, and this bitch is coming out fighting. I am going to make this world change by making the people who caused us pain to surfer it 10 times worst. And I want you all who read my xanga or come to my site to see pictures or to read poetry. I want you to think of who ever have hurt you, and when you think of them just scream FUCK YOU AND DIE BECAUSE TONIGHT I AM BRING YOU DOWN.


And get back at them anyway possible make them pay for every fucking tear they made you cry, every scar they cause you to cut, Make them bleed, shed the tears that you shed at the midnight hours. And watch them…enjoy their pain. People say you should never do this, but I just tell them fuck you, this is my life and who ever fucks with me or tries or even hurts me, will surfer will or more than I ever will. I am mad as hell and no one will stop me from making sure than every guy and girl that cheats or hurts one another, they will die a painful death of dying alone without love.

Am just sick of this mother fucking world, if I really had a chose I would have killed myself years ago, but I am not that week like some fags in the world. I don’t complain, I don’t cry, I don’t do anything, not even smile. So I am like a faded painting, lost in an endless memory that you’re forgetting.

I am changing before my eyes, and it scars people. I been called a whore, slut, and bitch because I love to show my body off, but if you have a hot body why not show it off. They say SELF RESPECT, and of course I say well duh I have respect for my self and others, how could I ever deprive the world of my body. I use my body as a tool, and I love every inch of my body, and I if someone ask me can they touch, hell I don’t give a fuck, they can touch any PART of me. In people eyes I always will be a whore, slut etc why not push it to more levels to make them turn away in shame of me. And its fun,

Some people say they are ugly, fat etc...And I say to them this SO FUCKING WHAT if you think that you are fat or ugly or whatever, you can always change them later, but till then, just learn how to make yourself over shine your every flaw, it’s easy. Preppy whores do it every morning before school, yep those cum sucking date bait whores. GOD I love them all, I taught them everything I know. *wink to them all*

And my famous saying I say all the mother fucking time is FUCK ME, SUCK ME, BEAT ME, GAG ME, and RAPE MY SOUL. People say you can’t rape the willing but you can, you really can….!!

Why do they all think, talk, dream about fucking, sucking. Those types of fags gives gays a bad name. Why do they need to say that shit. I just find it more fucked up then ever. It seems like the world only cares about fucking…but that’s not what I want in life. Sex will only last several hours, after that…then what. I am so pissed at all those guys…all they care about is getting their small ugly pricks sucked. What is this fucking world coming to. That’s why people hate gays is all because of THEM!! That’s why they think all we do is have perverted sex with tons of other guys, and no matter how much we speak up for our selfs we will never be heard. I am a type of guy that wants to find his other half, that’s why I wake up every morning, that’s my reason for living is for my other half, but I seem to cant find him. It seems the more the day fades to night I question a lot about my self in gernal mostly.

I just went back to read more of the dirty talk they spoke. All that they were saying was fucking and having sex without condoms, and why would anyone do that…that’s why more and more people are getting invected…my bestfriend died from HIV, and his memory lives on forever in my heart. But I am sick of this world.. this world was built on sex, drugs, porn,fakeness.

I feel sorry for this guys that are virgins and are gay, They think the first person that says they love you, they have to sleep with them. When in truth the guy never loved them just wanted their so called “tight ass”. I have millions and millions of options, to me they matter. It seems no matter how many people I meet, or talk to. I am the only one that seem to see the world for what it is..and what its about to become. And I feel like I have the only answer that would say us all. If they only listen to me..and not other people whom seem to always hurt them.


Shit like that makes me wanna scream. All people just want to date me because I am hott, a model. And I don’t understand it…thats the only thing…its seems that the ones that see’s the world for this beauty are the people who are not “blessed” but good looks. To me they are the lucky ones. But I do know they don’t get any, hardly any friends because people are so worryied about what people think. And I say one thing to that. FUCK WHAT PEOPLE THINK. Like is too short to care what they think. Its your life, do whatever makes you happy. That’s why we are here..to live OUR life, OUR dreams, NOT others.

I know not many people come to my xanga, I am not popular yet lol. And you may asked your self so then why do I put so much effort in my entires. Well the reason is I want people to see what I have to say and know that every word I type means something even if I have to put it into pictures, artwork, poetry . There are millions of ways to show what your feeling inside. And there are tons of people out there would wants to listen. I know I piss people off with somethings I say. And I don’t give a fuck. I say every word I speak, type, write. And I will never take back anything. Because I write how I see things, and how I feel. And if it hurts someone then I am sorry if it does. But they will get over it in time.

All I have now is my friends, music, and art. Those are truly the things that keep me going every morning, day, and night. Without them I would be nothing.


Thats all i have, and i have you really like it.

EnJOY

Angel



*NOTE I will be adding this weet and net week some new entries. its called.
TOUCH ME LOVE ME that contains over 100 pictures.

Please note that those pictures will have me nude in most ALL of the them-